Kayci

Kayci

Saturday, 29 March 2025 11:23

Manifesting What You Want

I was with my former husband for nine years before our relationship ended. After the dust settled and I could think straight, I found myself lost. I didn’t know where to begin the healing journey. I knew I had to remove myself from anything of my former husband, and I had to find my own place to heal, both physically and mentally. I found a small apartment and made it sacred, with new pictures on the walls and motivational quotes on my bathroom mirror. I eliminated things that would remind me of my past life. It helped, but it still didn’t block out the memories and everything I had lost. My plans and expectations were dashed. I had to start my life over from scratch.

Sunday, 23 February 2025 13:05

Perspectives

When I was around 10 years old, the thing I wanted most in the world was to fly. I was obsessed with it. I dreamed about it. I thought about it constantly. I wished upon stars that I would wake up with the ability to fly. I even tried it by jumping off the back of my dad’s truck and thinking happy thoughts. When I attempted to jump from my bedroom window, I knew I needed to stop, or I would get hurt. My desire to soar over the land, view my surroundings from a bird’s eyes, came from the reality that I was growing up. I wanted to fly to a place where I would never have to be an adult. The moment I realized I could get injured if I kept trying to fly was also the realization that there was no stopping adulthood.

Sunday, 19 January 2025 12:15

Cultivating Patience in the New Year

Typically during the last weeks of the old year, people set goals or intentions for themselves to carry through into the next. The most common ones include weight loss, exercising more, saving more money, watching less television or social media, or drinking less caffeine. Some less common ones might be being more mindful, starting a meditation practice, or getting more sleep. 

Sometimes we say we want to work on ourselves, but it’s normally in a vague sense of, perhaps thinking more positively or communicating more effectively with the people in our lives. We even may set our sights on altering a personality trait that has been our vice for a long time. Granted, we can’t change everything about ourselves, nor would we want to completely. However, we can work on cultivating more positive attributes from what we already have, or amplifying those areas where we may lack. 

Wednesday, 04 December 2024 22:48

What I Learned After my Divorce

Once in a while, it can be reaffirming to travel back in time to a point in our life that seemed devastatingly hard in order to see a clearer version of just how far we’ve come. After all, progress would not happen without pain. Growth would not happen without suffering.  

The end of the year brings with it reflections and a look back into the past. I have been thinking back to how much inward progress I have made since my divorce in 2021. This isn’t meant to be a humble brag, only a promise of hope to anyone who has or is going through what seemed like the worst time of your life. These “worst times” changed me for the better. What follows is meant to be inspiring for anyone experiencing the kind of devastation that makes them question its ending and wondering if they will ever see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

Sunday, 03 November 2024 14:06

What Keeps Us from Fulfilling Our Goals?

We all have good intentions when it comes to our goals in life. When we first set out to accomplish one, we feel motivated and energized. They create a purpose for us and we can even picture what life would be like when it is completed. Think about a few of yours. Maybe it’s to fix up your home. Or to build a garden and plant vegetables. Or to write a book. When I began writing my memoir, the writing flowed like water in a river. I cranked out scene after scene and continued with this momentum for the better part of a year. But after about a year, my writing trickled to the equivalent of a dried-up creek. Why does that happen? What occurs in our lives or blocks us from successfully completing one of our well-intentioned and important goals? 

“It is the problem of the human heart in conflict with itself which alone can make good writing.” ~William Faulkner

I have a problem and it is two-folds. I am a perfectionist with the awareness that I am a perfectionist. Why is this a problem? Because once you are aware of somthing you deem a flaw about yourself, then you have the responsibility to change it. Unfortunately, it isn’t so easy.

Sunday, 25 August 2024 14:17

The Secret Life of an Introvert

Do you remember when you were in school there was always that quiet kid in class who barely spoke but always seemed to excel on tests and projects? They normally kept to themselves and had few friends, yet aced quizzes and tests. Maybe they were called weird or shy. They were the ones that the popular kids didn’t associate with. I remember those kids in school, mostly because that shy kid who barely spoke was me. Maybe you can relate.

Saturday, 03 August 2024 15:22

Finding Balance in an Unbalanced World

We’ve all been there. Surfing the web and being hit by non-subtle advertisements for something that you had no idea existed but now are ready to make a spontaneous purchase just because it looks so darn cute. Or practical. Or efficient. 

We all can remember the last time our equilibrium fell by the wayside. Maybe it was overindulgence in some tempting libations or fancy food one night. Maybe it was an overzealous gym workout and the next day the soreness in your muscles caused slow and cumbersome movements. Maybe it was even that one time (or several) when Netflix got the better of you and before long, you lost track of time and watched the entire season of a show in one sitting. Whatever the vice, I bet you could kick yourself afterwards.  

On a recent walk in my neighborhood, I noticed something that got me thinking of the human condition. I live in an area where the houses sit side by side and an unlined road cuts through the neighborhood. Driveways lead to garages or front doors and the grass on some lawns is so high that outside cats lounge in the grassy fields without having to worry about being seen. There aren’t any designated sidewalks for pedestrians so I have to walk on the roads that wind throughout the neighborhood, vigilant of cars that appear from all the intersections.

My boyfriend, who would eventually be my ex-husband years later, and I approached several of the cats at the humane society in hopes of finding one that would make a good fit for us in our first apartment in Florida. We had just moved from Pennsylvania in July of 2012. 

Several of the cats were sleeping as we looped the area. Some cats were awake but didn’t seem interested in socializing. Then we came to a small, black kitten. She reached her tiny paw through the bars to play and I gently squeezed it.

Glancing at her identification card I saw the name “Jinx" and she was born June 24, 2012. Her friendliness and energy were infectious as we watched her continue slipping her tiny paw between the bars like she was marking us for her own. It was hard for me to step away to continue searching, but we left and went home.  

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