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I have always been an avid reader. The books that captured most of my attention were the ones where the characters experienced problems when something or someone got in the way of their goal. I loved it when the characters defeat whatever monstrosity that tried deterring them from their desires. The problems were frustrating, but I kept reading to see how the characters would overcome them. Most of us enjoy reading a good story, especially the kind where despite all odds, somehow our protagonist comes out relatively unscathed. These were the best stories because the reader was on the same side as the characters, rooting for them every step of the way. The reader felt they had as much stake in the outcome as the people on the page. 

The human mind is more powerful than we can ever fathom. When you start to filter in positive thoughts, your life will begin to transform. ~Buddha

Life tends to either build you up or knock you down, and we never know which one it will be at any given moment. The latter seems to be happening to me lately. I am caught in a chaotic swirl of the universe’s energy that caused a series of bad luck events. All of them happening within a three-month span knocked me down for the count. I didn’t want to get back up. I wanted to lay on the ground, hiding from the world so that nothing else could get me.

When one negative event after another gives you the proverbial punch in the face, it can be hard to think clearly or rationally. Emotions tend to take control and make everything worse. The mind starts spiraling into a paranoid view of the world. “What else is going to happen?” haunts your thoughts, despite your best efforts to remain positive.

Two years ago, in December of 2021 I spent the Christmas and New Year’s holidays by myself, exploring the countryside and cities of North Carolina, searching for places to feel like I belonged, for a place I could call my home. It was a tumultuous time for me. I was still grieving and trying to heal from the loss of my husband and my life in an unexpected divorce. My heart leaked with failure, depression, and pain. My mind urged me to run far away from the pain and memories of my past.