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Things I Used to Tell Myself:

1. Keep yourself small. Don’t attract so much attention or people will find out how imperfect you are.
2. Be careful about speaking up. Your opinions don’t matter.
3. Try to be as good as others in looks and achievements. That's the only way you will be loved and happy.
4. You aren’t smart or good enough unless you get all A’s. Make lots of money. Keep your body thin.
5. You have to prove yourself to be loved. You aren’t inherently worthy of it without something tangent that can be seen.

“It is the problem of the human heart in conflict with itself which alone can make good writing.” ~William Faulkner

I have a problem and it is two-folds. I am a perfectionist with the awareness that I am a perfectionist. Why is this a problem? Because once you are aware of somthing you deem a flaw about yourself, then you have the responsibility to change it. Unfortunately, it isn’t so easy.